Last day of waiting .... :D

There would have been a smile in my face for sure....That was the longest ,weirdest and and most romantic situation I'd ever experienced ...Apologies,different kinds,different backgrounds,with lights and without lights...cutest,sweetest,I hate to use this word but sexiest too...hmm....it seemed like an episode and to add the spice ,the thrilling part... I was speaking something very low, in fact murmuring into phone one night sneaking at my kitchen ...I remember every detail, the chair ,table nd all and suddenly out of nowhere my mom rushes into kitchen, I was whispering and seeing her ,I panicked cut the call and placed the phone on the table...my heart was thumping hard...she looked so hard and asked who I was talking to, and she took the phone....I feared she might look the dialed calls....That was the last scene in my sense ...How could my dream be sweet nd sour at the same time? ..

As I woke up, I sat in my bed for a couple of minutes to make sure it was a dream... then I  remembered its sunday, thn as usual comes my call ...my mom and father shouting out my name... why do they have to shout ? ..what would cost them to just come near me and gently say that....It seems that shouting is the only way they can communicate .... With disgust, I step out ,prayed for a nice day in my mind , and then came a big bright sense of happiness ....last day of waiting ,from tomorrow back to online കത്തി വെക്കല്‍  ....not a completely bad day....


I get fresh and dressed to go to church....At church throughout my prayers ,I remembered u and my family and frnds ... Prayed everything to go well and smoothly,everything to be good....back from church, I looked my phone and then saw it crowded with msgs,...FRIENDSHIP DAY!! ..ohh i totally forgot it...I typed the reply to almost everything and some special one to my dear friends...Then I felt bored sitting nothing to do...thought of giving u a msg...I didnt think I could call u today...Then I logged into my account ..after sometime I noticed ur like notices on the left...so u must be there too ...As I was going to say hlo...there came ur msg....The first think that came to my mind was to ask whether that ihrd was there too.....that girl is surely to be my victim one day!!!......then u said u had to tell something....as u insisted u have to tell it on the phone...I sensed it'ld be a girl matter,, thn came in my mind that mangalore one....Does these girls have no other job?...thousands of boys hanging freely ,why messing here....god,plz have mercy on me....u said she's online there now....I'd kill her !!.....time went on....nyways tomorrow is my day.....I get u all for myself and nobody else....ohh!! If u had been here I'd have given u thousands of hits...thank god ..u r saved...To add my tensions there came a msg ,of the one I mentioned,soo much emotional, I thought I'd better say, I'm not interested straightaway ,I expressed it in a lighter manner telling I am nt planning 4 a marriage atleast for 2 yrs...to my despair,he said his parents are looking for a girl and he thought of asking me, nd he too is in an opinion of getting married after 2 or 3 yrs...I gave him a k, nd set my chat again....Its better to ignore ....

After 5.00 to my luck,my parents went to drop my cousin(she's lucky for me sometimes)...I dialed u as soon as I can ,I couldnt wait to hear what u had to say...To my despair u didnt say anything properly...Said that mangalore one called u...and also there was a call from an unknown number...hmm....I hate ur vodaphone completely ,in every sense.....network ,the operators and also the customer care.......As we went on, I was actually not planning to tell this one,but came to my mouth...abt that guy....and then :@ :@, ur i'msoocool reply,,I felt like dying thousand deaths, come there strangle ur neck with my hand (but not to kill u definitely) , chasing u and giving u a nice blow... such a cold response....:( hmm.....then u told u want to get me angry....seriously...if I get angrier than this I'ld be worse ....a mere apology would never calm me then......and thn my parents returned,I was abt to give u apology,whn u asked for it....this tym too,I didnt ask urs...what a fool.....when am I going to get a proper one from u...Either u wont give,or whn u r ready,I wont be asking.... :(
next tym surely

Hopefully tomorrow, I get back with my normal routine....spending hours with u....talking needs recharge....We have a plan to meet, oh!! how would it turn out?....nervous and happy at the same time...


Tomorrow, I need to fire u (but what to say)....anyways I'm still mad at u... :p just a little but mad definitely


Ho!! feeling great after expressing everything , every frustration here....
Waiting for a gr8 day tomorrow....feeling like the tops of the world, a full morning without u, but I can manage bcoz the time is getting less....not a full 24 hr left....Praying for a superb dream filled with suspense and thrills....hoping u too have a gr8 one, this tym if u go for any angels u r definitely going to enjoy tomorrow bcoz I'l definitely freak out.... hope u sleep well and tight ,without waking up at 2 or 3.....without any vodafone interruption.....

Pink Rose nd Coffee for dreams :p

Pretty fine day....

As I woke up today,I felt nervous...eventhough it was a great one,I was feeling bad....To worsen it up ,I got a cold too, I took some pills....I spent a gr8 deal of time thinking wear an I went for a simple and cute one ,white nd dark green print.....As usual I got  firing from my dear father for being late.... Ohh!! I feared this is definitely not my day and somehow went with my parents...On the way I kept my mouth shut and face somewhat hostile...on my way I got the call from my friend who is goin to be receiving the prize along with me..she said our name was announced to be seated ...ohh!! another flaw from me,my father was right I am indeed late..
As we made it to college half an hour b4 the scheduled time,I was on the verge of embarrassment ,my father was as cool as if it was he who studied there...i saw the stage,the crowd was so big,I felt like running back..Me and my friend was given a seat specially at the front...I felt my legs shaking...I felt the same feeling from my friend beside me,so its not only me...we went on with our hostel and future discussions,...time passed by ,the crowd was getting thick..more nd more of press and politicians...I was running my eyes across the entire length to see someone familiar and giving them smiles...at last he time came,the chief guests came and sat on the stage...some boring and some inspirational speeches ,then one of our junior came and told us to come backstage, Finally the time!!....with shivering legs we approached the backstage and there we were met my our teachers,they managed to give us congrats and then they started the announcement, First went my from from electronics and the hoooo me...I took a look at the audience ,saw my parents ,my father was frantic ,I took a look at my mom,she was smiling , ... I felt soo happy at that time...I gave something for my parents to be happy about..this is what I wanted ...I felt much braver...I went and received that one...I walked out with my friend ...and then all I could think about was u...so I msged u...then came ur call back ,same time my appa also called so I had to cut that and then I called u , hearing ur voice made me indeed more happy ...


After leaving the function, I started feeling the effect of pills,I  was feeling dizzy and a slight headache ....as I reached home ,I logged in to see u online ,whn u were nt there I dialed u, felt good....and when u said u could have come everyday ,i felt like giving u a pinch....but then I felt that it made me realise how much I miss u....think always positively......seeing the better side of it,I felt its ok....my headache was killing me and I felt more dizzy....with jst 1% mind I asked if I could go offline...I really wanted to sit there,but my brains was opposing it...I thought I;d call u later,b4 my parents are back...as fast as I can I dumped myself into bed....when I opened my eyes and looked my parents were back and I felt  sad I didnt  call u...I left u a msg....I was scared if u will feel bad......Hope I could call u tomorrow....


the rest of evening was soo boring.....then I called my brother and talked to him for hours... I felt good and calm...It is his birthday today...Praying my god give all the happiness in his life...take it from me and give it to him....bcoz he is the best that anyone can have...I missed u soo much while I talked to my brother ,felt like talking to u,  and  let ur life be filled with with all that u desire...like the way u want it ,praying to god ,for u ,ur happiness, bcoz u r really someone special to me,a gud person ,one I can trust ... ohh!! miss u so much ,less than 48 hrs left now....want to get back with my typing skills....


I love hearing to your worries and sharing mine with u...love talking to u...love missing u so dearly, ...I just hope that u say everything to me without any hiding and feeling of hurting me.....I can promise u that u would never hurt me ...My eyes r heavy again ....feeling to sleep again.....with all the sweet memories of u ....48 hrs only....the clock starts ticking ....there will come a time when we meet,looking forward for it....

Can't wait till 6th ..... :(

Yet another morning missing u.....I woke up today with a feeling of emptiness ..I looked for the time 7.15 ,my head was still heavy,...I looked at the mirror eyes were swollen and the pimple worsening,its definitely going to leave a mark on my face...I wondered what u'ld be doing and thought u'ld still be in bed..

I spent the rest of the day watching movie,reading magazines and then a sweet long chat with my mom...,advises...I felt a deep guilt inside me...hope everything  would be fine...I missed u a lot and to kill my  time I browsed the net ,played some boring games....and to my relief my parents decided to go out after 5.30 ...my soul was jumping up nd down...I rushed to leave u a msg ,asking if u r free...I jst expected a missed ...but thn came ur msg.... "WOWIEE "...ho...U sent me a  msg!!! hmmm.....loved it a lot.......


I kept on looking the clock to strike 5 ....my mom told me to cook and without much concentration I cooked something in a rush ...God knows how it'd taste ...at last 5 ,home alone .... :D :D I left u a msg and dialed u....thn came ur voice at the other end....felt a sense of relief in my mind as if ur voice is a soothing balm...u seemed so different from the usual tone...tension free....and romantic too....maybe bcoz of the hangover of the film....anyways loved it so much ...as usual u continue with ur usual teasing ..little less this time ...except with that ihrd adoor ....hope i'd get to know that girl and tell her to stop messing with my property.....hmm.....why does she have to chat whn she should be concentrating in her studies......feeling jealous....I felt really gud speaking to u...wish i could speak longer....these bills and time is definitely becoming the villains.....wondering if u r feeling the same way I feel...missing badly,suffocated ,desperately finding a way to kill time .......u r definitely changing me a lot,...I just dont want to get over with this feeling.....

I went back to my usual serials....with mind wandering somewhere...feeling lonely ..... why wouldn't the time pass.....the only thing I'm happy about is that its just 3 more days left.....

Thinking of tomorrow makes me nervous...but with u it seems easy....

Day of absolute boredom........

I woke up this morning after a very deep sleep,I didnt even remember any of my dreams .... I felt sad bcoz I want u in my dreams and everywhere where I am...I sensed today is going to be a boring day.....Mom was busy with household works..and I knew I'd never be able to call u today....felt really sad...I left u a msg hoping u'ld atleast have a gr8 day...


I was killing my time by watching movies...and I caught a glimpse of treasure hunter but it was the climax...I got a comment from my mom asking me what happened to ur face ,I rushed to the mirror ,there is a big pimple on my face...mom said someone's really thinking about me...eventhough its a superstition I loved to believe it and the pimple is really hurting me...for the first time I felt good about having marks in my face.....someone's is missing and thinking about me !!!


When I was on the verge of missing u I got a missed  from u..I looked and saw my mom busy ,so I rushed to my room and dialed u but u didnt pick...thought u'ld kept ur mobile somewhere...and waited ..after some time ,I again gt a missed frm u,but my mom was near me so I didnt dial u back..It was every bit of tom and jerry....when I was sitting alone I took a flash back ,all those days late night chatting,some embarrassing discussions :D ,our views on future partner and life ,places, dreams ,fog ,angel ,ur fav vin,the first time we talked, ,how u asked me that qn,how I reacted to it,one night that changed everything,my sleepless hours thinking over nd over confused,lyrics from BSB "my fav now", apologies, coffee, possessiveness ,the way u teased me , how I hurt u ,pink and red rose ,the plans we had ....so on... I thought of writing a post soon ......


Just as I finished it, I got a missed from u, like u have sensed it, It really made me miss u so badly I wanted to hear from u ....and then u called ..evn if it lasted for some sec,It was a huge relief for me....I came online asap ..and the first thing I noted was ur photo that brought a big smile on my face...we just had about 5 min and I had to tell u a lot...I frantically typed everything as soon as I can...and I felt happy u dreamt me ,chatting with u last night....the time passed like seconds....and then ur chatter went off ....ohh!! again  4 more days left.... I cant even wait a min more.....Missing u soo much ....


Hope the time pass quickly,I need those times again ,.....4 more days ...less thn 96 hrs ...hmm....and I am looking for good sweet baby names......


Saying good night ....feeling happy another day has passed....tomorrow another day less....

Memories!!!........

I'm sitting bored an lonely and all I could think of is u....Missing u sooo badly....The memories are rushing to my mind .....the time we spend and all those what we've discussed. .....sweet moments .....

I'm wondering what u r doing this time....hearing songs? movie ? or dialing ur fav customer care ? :p .... hope to hear ur voice 2day....if only i could get a chance......

5 more days to go.......Count down starts now....

Dear blog,


This morning I  woke up fresh because I slept for many hours and in my dreams were u and me and of course sweet apologies...I was feeling soo happy and somehow I felt today is going to be nice....


Morning was good...I left u a msg, and I had to go for shopping with my father...everywhere I go ,I imagined u besides me and I was feeling that sort of energy...with a face full of wide grin...the people are going to think I am crazy....My morning went like that...wherever I go,I would look around ...hoping to see u r somewhere there.... whn I returned I saw ur missed and I was way beyond happy , u remembered me !!! :D :D ...If u were there at that moment I'd have covered u with apologies .... I learned that my parents would go out this evng, then I could call u ....I left u a msg  mentioning the same...hoping for a reply,eventhough I knew for sure u r not going to reply,but u know I can hope atleast....I didnt really feel bad bcoz I was happy I understand u well...

Desperately killing time till evng...I was rushing my parents out of my house...and at last alone :D...I dialled u and as usual ...ur so cute nd darling voice on the other end.... I'd kill myself for it....we continued our talk and u told me u didnt sleep last night...dat's not gud...I sleep like a baby and u hardly get to sleep some hours...hmm....hope u''ll get over it...I was scared at some point of our conversation were u did nearly get caught...plz dont get urself in trouble bcoz of me...I wanted to be the cause of ur happiness not the cause of ur new problems...As always u needed the apology... Sry to say but u r definetely a MISER ...Its bad manner to keep a girl waiting ... :p ....so I'm really looking forward to the time u'll return all these... it makes me smile thinking of it...u r definetely going to be out of ur breath.....Hope one day I'll get to see u...But I'm worried what u've imagined of me... It scares me if u r looking for a korean girl like beauty and zero size  figure......hmmm....hope u wont get too much of a shock :D .....what are we supposed to do that day ... GOD !!


I had to go to  church to see the last of our head of diocese....It was a tiresome waiting....all I enjoyed was seeing the sky and the most beautiful full moon with lots of stars..I missed u a lot..It 'ld have been a romantic view if we were both together....hope u have a gr8 night ...but not with sme other angels .....

Day after a big storm ..........

Last night was something that I didn't want to experience anymore..But I realize that this is nothing compared to the problems we have to face in the future..so a little experience is really good..Eventhough the evening was drastic ,the night turned out to be pretty good,except for ur chatter problem in the midst...and I did something that I cant even believe till now,'Called u at night!!'....u must be pretty shocked urself...but u need to ask for things accordingly.....and I need to control myself....It seems I cant deny anything u ask......

Today,as I woke up ,the didnt miss u ,bcoz u  were in my dreams and we were continuing with out chat...after some time I left u a msg,(gud mrng),somehow I sensed u were still sleeping....after sometime I logged into the chat nd u were nt there...definitely sleeping thn....I felt to give u some time.,but later when I started missing u,I left u a msg to wake up... ''sry.. :p " and u came at last...I guessed u was still in the hangover of yesterdays sleep, smiling inward,I asked u about the dream...nd then it came...."ANGEL"-"lying with u" ," not letting u go" ,and the one that really freaked me out "she's lying with her head on ur chest" :@ :@ ....that was way beyond i could accept....even if one side of my mind keep telling me u r teasing me,the other side was driving me nuts....as days pass ,I am getting more nd more possessive.....If I could control it......I know that u needed ur space but still I couldnt bear sharing u with anybody or anything....I know this character of mine would make u mad one day....I really hope a day like that would never come....I definitely need to control my emotions....

Later ur chat session ended nd I went on with my training...desperately trying to finish it...at noon my parents had to go out, and I thought of calling u...then expecting ur reply call, I went to bed ,since I was tired of waking up early....nd then came ur call, somehow energy seemed to flush up in me..and I dialed u.....as usual u went on with ur teasing.... went on and on ...all I could do was sharply take in the breath hiding my anger and cluching on to my moms cloth hanging ....as soon as I realise the cloth is on the verge of tearing...I let go,nd choose to walk a bit ....again our talk went on and on and trying to sound as normal as I can ,I told u to do as u wish ,go with whoever u want,,nd I dont mind....u as well as me knew the extent to which it is true....(definitely not frm my mind)..I thought i'd try to make u feel the same way too ,but u seemed so carefree...(Is this only my specialty..being jealous)....hmmm......

Then u asked me an apology...why should it have to be me always giving u,nd u never return... :(  ...anyways the debt is rising so u need to find a way to solve it.... :p....The neighbour cow seem to go in sync with our conversation.... clever cow ..... then u asked me whether I know whom I am giving these apology ....yes,u r right ,I never imagined anything how u'ld look ,but its necessary that we need to meet nd we both need to see.... hmm....we need to find a way...

Time was going like anything, my bills r going to be high ....and as to conclude our talk as always u asked for an apology ....I needed u to give one b4 I'd give anymore ,but my parents returned...and all I could think was giving u lots and lots of apologies, and I gave u like many ,I didn't even bothered to count it... 

Later I had to get fresh, help mom and I tried to keep myself busy..My parents went out again but I didnt call u..I didnt want u to get caught also I was tired nd I needed some sleep...leaving u to ur songs ...all I could think was how we'd meet and how we'd react..what u'ld feel ...nd all..leaving it all in the hands of God...let things turn out in its own way...As u said yesterday,let u get all what u wished for...I'd pray for ur good ... hope u r having a gr8 evng

Missing u a lot and lot ...more than u'ld ever think of....waiting for aug 6th , 6 MORE DAYS TO GO.... feeling like being beside u nd hearing ur worries nd of course ur teasing too....what should i do to tease u nd make u feel the same way I do....one day I'll definitely find it....but this is what u make me feel ..I want all of u forever ,just you and me, everyday....